Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Long time
I haven't been updating this blog....I will again someday.
Right now, I am working on my other blog:
http://3boyslater.blogspot.com/
in case you don't know. :)
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
It's been awhile
I'm only posting because I feel bad for not doing so in forever. It's been a long time since I've blogged, and I've been avoiding it on purpose. There's just not a lot of happiness to report, and I hate to record the bad stuff. It's not my style. For now, just know that my kiddos are awesome, and I'm hanging in there. Sorry it's not more exciting.
Here is a picture of us with my step-sister, Bronwen, when she came to visit.
And here are my boys playing with a handcart
Ben with his baby doll (every little boy should have one!)
And in case you didn't see this one on Facebook, I found Nate like this in the middle of the night. hee hee
Here is a picture of us with my step-sister, Bronwen, when she came to visit.
And here are my boys playing with a handcart
Ben with his baby doll (every little boy should have one!)
And in case you didn't see this one on Facebook, I found Nate like this in the middle of the night. hee hee
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Untitled
I'm not sure when I realized that I wasn't dead. I think it was sometime between the peaceful feeling creeping in, and the numbness finally leaving my limbs. Awareness began to return to my body, yet I remained paralyzed.
The blast came suddenly. None of us knew that it would be our fate. We had followed each instruction carefully, one step at a time, obediently proceeding with each part, unknowing what it would bring. As each sign appeared, we knew we were on the right track without having any ideas where we would end up. We knew that we had been chosen for this purpose and that we would be swiftly rewarded. What we did not realize was that a nuclear blast would be "it." As the wave approached, I felt surprise, isolation, and then comfort. I even had a moment to wonder what would happen next and regret that I would not be there to see it.
I floated in darkness and searched for some consciousness of my physical self, it eventually came back, but only very gradually. Have you ever woken up from a dream completely numb? It happens to me occasionally, but usually when I'm awakened from the "wrong" state of sleep by an outside source like a crying baby.
I looked at the clock-it said 3:12am. I felt the dream still, and had simultaneously mixed emotions of doom, warning, and acceptance.
The blast came suddenly. None of us knew that it would be our fate. We had followed each instruction carefully, one step at a time, obediently proceeding with each part, unknowing what it would bring. As each sign appeared, we knew we were on the right track without having any ideas where we would end up. We knew that we had been chosen for this purpose and that we would be swiftly rewarded. What we did not realize was that a nuclear blast would be "it." As the wave approached, I felt surprise, isolation, and then comfort. I even had a moment to wonder what would happen next and regret that I would not be there to see it.
I floated in darkness and searched for some consciousness of my physical self, it eventually came back, but only very gradually. Have you ever woken up from a dream completely numb? It happens to me occasionally, but usually when I'm awakened from the "wrong" state of sleep by an outside source like a crying baby.
I looked at the clock-it said 3:12am. I felt the dream still, and had simultaneously mixed emotions of doom, warning, and acceptance.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Pictures!!!
I have been so bad about posting pics! So here are some...
Let's start with Christmas:
On to Ben's 1st birthday. They are out of order, so if you want sequence, start at the bottom. LOL
And lastly, here's one of my latest haircut...It's all grown out now, but it was cute for a minute...
Let's start with Christmas:
On to Ben's 1st birthday. They are out of order, so if you want sequence, start at the bottom. LOL
And lastly, here's one of my latest haircut...It's all grown out now, but it was cute for a minute...
Friday, December 24, 2010
Christmas Eve
I LOVE Christmas Eve even more than Christmas morning. I like the anticipation. After all the presents are opened on the day, it's over, and I'm sad. But tonight, I just get to be happy about what has yet to come. This year, we decided not to get each other presents, in order to save money, and I am totally fine with that! To me, it truly is more about giving than receiving on Christmas. My birthday, on the other hand, is a different story. LOL
I have been so bad about taking pictures lately, but tomorrow morning, I will try to make up for that. As soon as I finish writing this, I am going to find the batteries for the camera, and get it ready to go for morning.
Tonight, we read the Christmas story in the scriptures before bed. Of course, I paraphrased in some places and added some extra explanation for a 4 year old mind. But it really brought a nice spirit to the bedtime routine, and I plan to make it a tradition. Other traditions we enjoy are: leaving milk and cookies for Santa, and carrots or celery for the reindeer, and I want to start doing the Christmas Eve pajamas too, but we'll start that next year.
My kids are growing up so fast. I hope I can teach them the true meaning of Christmas. We did the Angel Tree thing, and tried to involve Nate as much as possible, explaining to him why we were buying gifts for some other kid that he had never met. But the message got through somehow, he brought it up afterward when I didn't expect him to remember. Ben won't remember this Christmas, but hopefully Nate will.
We have an ornament on the tree that says "Nate's First Christmas 2006" and he is so proud of it. Amid all the craziness this year, Ben didn't get one. But don't worry, Nate was so concerned, he made one for Ben. Nate's is a snowman, so he thought Ben should have a snowman too. I cut it out of paper and Nate decorated it. He even wrote Ben's name on it. I love that he can do that. He can write all our names now, and a few other words too.
I love this little family so much. They make me happier than anything else ever could. Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Some randomness
Some random things:
1. I am attempting to start college next month. This is a very big step for me. I hope I can handle it along with 2 kids, a full time job, and a husband who often needs my help with his own school work (writing is my strength but his weakness).
2. I love having 2 little boys, it is so much fun, and gets better every day, especially now that the little one is WALKING!
3. We have become closet football fans. Patriots and Bears, in case you are wondering.
4. I like sandwiches.
5. I miss close friends.
6. Now that I have a new ride, I really want to take a road trip. But work is kinda in the way...
7. I can't wait to do a bunch of Christmas-y stuff together with the family this week. We drove around and looked at Christmas lights last night and had ice cream afterward. :)
I can't think of anything else right now. I feel like I should get some pics and vids of the kids before this time flies by!
1. I am attempting to start college next month. This is a very big step for me. I hope I can handle it along with 2 kids, a full time job, and a husband who often needs my help with his own school work (writing is my strength but his weakness).
2. I love having 2 little boys, it is so much fun, and gets better every day, especially now that the little one is WALKING!
3. We have become closet football fans. Patriots and Bears, in case you are wondering.
4. I like sandwiches.
5. I miss close friends.
6. Now that I have a new ride, I really want to take a road trip. But work is kinda in the way...
7. I can't wait to do a bunch of Christmas-y stuff together with the family this week. We drove around and looked at Christmas lights last night and had ice cream afterward. :)
I can't think of anything else right now. I feel like I should get some pics and vids of the kids before this time flies by!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Message from Santa
Here is the link in case you want to see the special message Santa sent to Nate. I hope the link works...
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Sunday, November 28, 2010
First Primary Program
Nate had is first Primary Program last Sunday, and I actually wrote about it in my paper journal today, but I thought you all would like to know about it too!
We had a practice on Saturday, and he was a little depressed at first because he didn't know all the songs. I don't know what 4 yr old knows ALL the songs, but I certainly didn't expect him to. I think he's a little perfectionist like his mommy. I felt so bad, but I learned a lesson. Next year I better work on them at home with him! No matter how busy I am.
A few weeks ago, the Primary Pres gave me an envelope that said "Your child has been assigned a line in the primary program, please practice at home." Or something like that. His line was "I can follow Jesus by _____________." So I asked Nate what he wanted to say, "How can you be like Jesus? How can you follow his example?" and his response was "I can follow Jesus by bringing the priesthood." I tried to get him to change the words so it made more sense, but that's was what he wanted to say, and he stuck with it. He memorized it for the program, and it was such a proud moment when he stood up at the microphone and said it with clarity and confidence.
During the singing, he was nervous, I could tell. It was sort of cute, he was resting his face in his hands and fidgeting. I thought that was bad, until he started chewing on his tie! Haha! That was toward the end, I think he was getting bored. They sang all the verses of Follow The Prophet and it was too long for the little kids! Oh well.
Another highlight of the day was Daddy coming to church with us to watch Nate in the program. The baby was more well-behaved with both of us there, and it was just really nice to be together in church again. That's one thing I can never complain about on my husband, he will always be there to support his kids no matter what. The snow almost kept us from making it that day, because we had already moved to our new place (15 minute drive on the interstate), but thankfully the road crews were out early and had the roads cleared. :)
In other news, Ben is officially walking. He doesn't walk around everywhere, but he will stand up at the coffee table and walk across the room when he feels like it. Crawling is still the faster way to get around, but not for long! I can't believe it, he's not quite 10 months old yet. But I guess I sort of expected it out of this one.
I need to post some new pics, will do soon!
We had a practice on Saturday, and he was a little depressed at first because he didn't know all the songs. I don't know what 4 yr old knows ALL the songs, but I certainly didn't expect him to. I think he's a little perfectionist like his mommy. I felt so bad, but I learned a lesson. Next year I better work on them at home with him! No matter how busy I am.
A few weeks ago, the Primary Pres gave me an envelope that said "Your child has been assigned a line in the primary program, please practice at home." Or something like that. His line was "I can follow Jesus by _____________." So I asked Nate what he wanted to say, "How can you be like Jesus? How can you follow his example?" and his response was "I can follow Jesus by bringing the priesthood." I tried to get him to change the words so it made more sense, but that's was what he wanted to say, and he stuck with it. He memorized it for the program, and it was such a proud moment when he stood up at the microphone and said it with clarity and confidence.
During the singing, he was nervous, I could tell. It was sort of cute, he was resting his face in his hands and fidgeting. I thought that was bad, until he started chewing on his tie! Haha! That was toward the end, I think he was getting bored. They sang all the verses of Follow The Prophet and it was too long for the little kids! Oh well.
Another highlight of the day was Daddy coming to church with us to watch Nate in the program. The baby was more well-behaved with both of us there, and it was just really nice to be together in church again. That's one thing I can never complain about on my husband, he will always be there to support his kids no matter what. The snow almost kept us from making it that day, because we had already moved to our new place (15 minute drive on the interstate), but thankfully the road crews were out early and had the roads cleared. :)
In other news, Ben is officially walking. He doesn't walk around everywhere, but he will stand up at the coffee table and walk across the room when he feels like it. Crawling is still the faster way to get around, but not for long! I can't believe it, he's not quite 10 months old yet. But I guess I sort of expected it out of this one.
I need to post some new pics, will do soon!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Forever!
I titled this blog "Forever" because that's how long it's been since my last update! I haven't posted since we left Florida, I feel bad about that. Honestly, I have been avoiding posting because so much has happened, I just can't fit it all in, and if I tried, I would fail miserably and leave you all thinking that my blog sucks. LOL
I have lots of pictures from my trip, but I haven't uploaded them yet. It was hot, the kids look flushed, and I even took a picture of the thermometer thingy in our car reading 108. Did I mention we had no air conditioning? Not because we don't have air conditioning, but because we were pulling a trailer and the head gasket was going out so we couldn't use the A/C or our car would overheat. That's basically the trip in a nutshell.
If I try to say much more, I won't do it all justice. Just know that everything fell into place, just as it did the first time we moved to Salt Lake. I got a job managing an apartment community (out of our home, I don't go to an office-the apartment is sort of the office), which gives us free rent, utilities, and salary. I love the company that I work for. It is small, and family-oriented, but they operate as a big company (as in, rules, regulations, things are streamlined, organized, functional, efficient, etc). So it's been great.
I found this awesome preschool for Nate. I have been intending to homeschool, but now that I'm working, I just don't have the time to teach him the things he is SO ready to learn. Fortunately, through the gals at my church (who teach there), I found this little school to put him in. They call it a "homeschool based" school because it's Pre-K thru 12th grade, but even grades 1-12 only go a half day, they learn pure academics, and leave the rest for the family to teach. His class is Tuesdays and Thursdays from 8-12, and he is learning SO MUCH. He's like a little sponge right now, and I'm go grateful for the opportunity he has to learn. The preschool class is small, about 8 kids, and the teacher is great. We had parent/teacher conference already, and she said he was doing so well, even though he came in to the year late. He is even a "contribution" to the class, and that it's better with him there! His natural desire to be obedient helps the other kids, I guess. He must get that from me. Although that trait didn't show up in me until adulthood. I was a rebel as a teenager. But maybe all teenagers are...
Anyway, back to the point. Kid updates. Ben is...a handful. Don't get me wrong, he is the cutest baby I have ever seen (maybe even giving Nate a run for his money) and he is SOOOO happy. He loves everyone and thinks it's always party time. However, he doesn't sleep well, and is into EVERYTHING. I really have my hands full with this one. He's a joy to be around, but WOW, he's a pain in the rear right now. LOL I'm sure he will grow out of it a little bit. Or maybe it will get worse...Oh boy...
He is going to be walking any minute. He is 8 1/2 months old and is already walking while holding someone's hands. Oh, and he has 2 very cute bottom teeth. :)
Steven is doing well in school. He doesn't like any of his classes, but he is getting through. He's taking mostly general ed classes right now, Math, English, Computer Literacy, and his Diversity requirement "Film and Culture." It could be a cool class, but it started off in the horror genre, and as some of you may know we do NOT enjoy horror and gore, and he was forced to watch a lot of it. Next up, the "diversity" portion of his class was all about homosexuality, and he had to write a 6 page essay on a gay-themed movie. You can guess how much he *loved* this part of class. There are other teachers that teach different things to fulfill the diversity requirement, one teaches more about black films and culture, and one about Asian film and culture (I think), but he had to get "the gay one." Poor guy. LOL
I am doing pretty well also. Even though I work at home, it takes up pretty much my whole day Monday through Friday 9 to 5. But it could be worse. I'm at home with the kids and I'm making money. And I hardly have to do any housework- Steven does all of that (except dishes, I still do that-and we don't have a dishwasher)! It's a nice break. Although the change in roles has taken some adjustment for both of us, and we could really use a vacation. Haha! But again, I love my job. Wow, that's something I don't know if I have ever said before! Also, I am going to start taking classes in the spring. Just one or two at a time. But at least it will get things started. I have been helping Steven learn his math, and I figure I better go ahead and take those classes while it's all fresh in my mind. I think I am going to major in Music. I have tried to decide on other things, and I just don't feel as passionately about any of them as I do about music, so why wouldn't I just do something I love?
What else is going on...not much. My overall weight loss has been good. I am finally back to the size I was when I got married 8 years ago. Of course, things don't look the same as they did then, if you know what I mean. It's hard to believe that the tag on my pants can say "6" and I still have cottage cheese thighs and a flabby tummy. But oh well, I am not complaining!! To clarify, not all my pants are 6, some are 8, but again, I'm just thankful for that! Not complaining!
So far, the weather has been great here in Salt Lake. I hope we are still just as happy here when the snow comes. Actually, it was the end of April/beginning of May snow that was depressing. The beginning of winter snow is fun and exciting. Am I really talking about the weather? Sorry!
For now, I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry if this has been boring, but at least I finally caught up (sort of). I will try to post pics and videos soon.
I have lots of pictures from my trip, but I haven't uploaded them yet. It was hot, the kids look flushed, and I even took a picture of the thermometer thingy in our car reading 108. Did I mention we had no air conditioning? Not because we don't have air conditioning, but because we were pulling a trailer and the head gasket was going out so we couldn't use the A/C or our car would overheat. That's basically the trip in a nutshell.
If I try to say much more, I won't do it all justice. Just know that everything fell into place, just as it did the first time we moved to Salt Lake. I got a job managing an apartment community (out of our home, I don't go to an office-the apartment is sort of the office), which gives us free rent, utilities, and salary. I love the company that I work for. It is small, and family-oriented, but they operate as a big company (as in, rules, regulations, things are streamlined, organized, functional, efficient, etc). So it's been great.
I found this awesome preschool for Nate. I have been intending to homeschool, but now that I'm working, I just don't have the time to teach him the things he is SO ready to learn. Fortunately, through the gals at my church (who teach there), I found this little school to put him in. They call it a "homeschool based" school because it's Pre-K thru 12th grade, but even grades 1-12 only go a half day, they learn pure academics, and leave the rest for the family to teach. His class is Tuesdays and Thursdays from 8-12, and he is learning SO MUCH. He's like a little sponge right now, and I'm go grateful for the opportunity he has to learn. The preschool class is small, about 8 kids, and the teacher is great. We had parent/teacher conference already, and she said he was doing so well, even though he came in to the year late. He is even a "contribution" to the class, and that it's better with him there! His natural desire to be obedient helps the other kids, I guess. He must get that from me. Although that trait didn't show up in me until adulthood. I was a rebel as a teenager. But maybe all teenagers are...
Anyway, back to the point. Kid updates. Ben is...a handful. Don't get me wrong, he is the cutest baby I have ever seen (maybe even giving Nate a run for his money) and he is SOOOO happy. He loves everyone and thinks it's always party time. However, he doesn't sleep well, and is into EVERYTHING. I really have my hands full with this one. He's a joy to be around, but WOW, he's a pain in the rear right now. LOL I'm sure he will grow out of it a little bit. Or maybe it will get worse...Oh boy...
He is going to be walking any minute. He is 8 1/2 months old and is already walking while holding someone's hands. Oh, and he has 2 very cute bottom teeth. :)
Steven is doing well in school. He doesn't like any of his classes, but he is getting through. He's taking mostly general ed classes right now, Math, English, Computer Literacy, and his Diversity requirement "Film and Culture." It could be a cool class, but it started off in the horror genre, and as some of you may know we do NOT enjoy horror and gore, and he was forced to watch a lot of it. Next up, the "diversity" portion of his class was all about homosexuality, and he had to write a 6 page essay on a gay-themed movie. You can guess how much he *loved* this part of class. There are other teachers that teach different things to fulfill the diversity requirement, one teaches more about black films and culture, and one about Asian film and culture (I think), but he had to get "the gay one." Poor guy. LOL
I am doing pretty well also. Even though I work at home, it takes up pretty much my whole day Monday through Friday 9 to 5. But it could be worse. I'm at home with the kids and I'm making money. And I hardly have to do any housework- Steven does all of that (except dishes, I still do that-and we don't have a dishwasher)! It's a nice break. Although the change in roles has taken some adjustment for both of us, and we could really use a vacation. Haha! But again, I love my job. Wow, that's something I don't know if I have ever said before! Also, I am going to start taking classes in the spring. Just one or two at a time. But at least it will get things started. I have been helping Steven learn his math, and I figure I better go ahead and take those classes while it's all fresh in my mind. I think I am going to major in Music. I have tried to decide on other things, and I just don't feel as passionately about any of them as I do about music, so why wouldn't I just do something I love?
What else is going on...not much. My overall weight loss has been good. I am finally back to the size I was when I got married 8 years ago. Of course, things don't look the same as they did then, if you know what I mean. It's hard to believe that the tag on my pants can say "6" and I still have cottage cheese thighs and a flabby tummy. But oh well, I am not complaining!! To clarify, not all my pants are 6, some are 8, but again, I'm just thankful for that! Not complaining!
So far, the weather has been great here in Salt Lake. I hope we are still just as happy here when the snow comes. Actually, it was the end of April/beginning of May snow that was depressing. The beginning of winter snow is fun and exciting. Am I really talking about the weather? Sorry!
For now, I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry if this has been boring, but at least I finally caught up (sort of). I will try to post pics and videos soon.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Our time here
Our time in Florida has been a very humbling experience for me. I didn't want to come here, but I knew my husband had righteous motives-to work through some family things, and he hoped for progress in that area-to be closer to his family, but we didn't understand exactly what that would mean.
When we got here, I tried to adapt, but found it very difficult, so difficult in fact, that I accidentally sabotaged my social life. Is that a contradiction? Is sabotage supposedly intentional? Anyway, it happened. It kept me from church for a few weeks, which has also been humbling and a learning experience. It also helped me get to know my neighbors, who turned out to be a family that we will always remember, and thanks to Facebook, probably never lose touch with.
Things didn't turn out exactly the way we anticipated with one side of Steven's family. Actually, it turned out to be a disappointment. But last night, a surprise phone call came and a dinner was planned for tonight with the other side of the family. We had no clear intentions of hooking up with Steven's dad's side (including a younger sister, age 10-she shares a b'day with Steven, and her mom, and wonderful woman with whom I would love to spend more time). However, GOD INTENDED US TO RECONNECT WITH THEM.
We all went to dinner tonight, and although I can't describe exactly how the whole thing felt, I can say it was very healing and fulfilling. I'm having a very hard time choosing words here. I just want to say that I have a little bit better understand of how normal families must feel toward each other. Like no matter what, you are always family, and it all comes together in the end. I feel that they are truly there for us, they care about us, respect us and love us. And it's mutual. (I have that with my dad, but no one else that I am related to by blood. I think Steven has desired it with his mom, but she has never been able to really fill that role.) What a wonderful feeling to experience after all these years of disappointment.
I think Steven would say "that's enough about feelings now!" LOL
My cup runneth over. We are truly blessed. The Lord has provided for us and will continue to do so. I know that to be true.
So, I think we have made enough expensive mistakes moving back and forth across the country. We are finally on the right track, and it feels good. I think as long as we continue to put family first, we will be okay.
When we got here, I tried to adapt, but found it very difficult, so difficult in fact, that I accidentally sabotaged my social life. Is that a contradiction? Is sabotage supposedly intentional? Anyway, it happened. It kept me from church for a few weeks, which has also been humbling and a learning experience. It also helped me get to know my neighbors, who turned out to be a family that we will always remember, and thanks to Facebook, probably never lose touch with.
Things didn't turn out exactly the way we anticipated with one side of Steven's family. Actually, it turned out to be a disappointment. But last night, a surprise phone call came and a dinner was planned for tonight with the other side of the family. We had no clear intentions of hooking up with Steven's dad's side (including a younger sister, age 10-she shares a b'day with Steven, and her mom, and wonderful woman with whom I would love to spend more time). However, GOD INTENDED US TO RECONNECT WITH THEM.
We all went to dinner tonight, and although I can't describe exactly how the whole thing felt, I can say it was very healing and fulfilling. I'm having a very hard time choosing words here. I just want to say that I have a little bit better understand of how normal families must feel toward each other. Like no matter what, you are always family, and it all comes together in the end. I feel that they are truly there for us, they care about us, respect us and love us. And it's mutual. (I have that with my dad, but no one else that I am related to by blood. I think Steven has desired it with his mom, but she has never been able to really fill that role.) What a wonderful feeling to experience after all these years of disappointment.
I think Steven would say "that's enough about feelings now!" LOL
My cup runneth over. We are truly blessed. The Lord has provided for us and will continue to do so. I know that to be true.
So, I think we have made enough expensive mistakes moving back and forth across the country. We are finally on the right track, and it feels good. I think as long as we continue to put family first, we will be okay.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Happy Birthday-4 yrs old already??!!!
I tried to document the day the best I could. Here we have the favorite breakfast: french toast with fruit. (I'm so happy that he likes cantaloupe, because I don't! lol)
A little rough-housing with Daddy!
We did whatever he wanted today, and one thing he wanted to do was play soccer in the backyard!Here he is swimming in the neighbor's pool. This is the first time swimming all by himself-he's not scared anymore!!
Eating lunch-hot dogs, watermelon, and party mix. :)
Here is baby brother chowing down on watermelon (or trying...)
Here is baby brother chowing down on watermelon (or trying...)Lighting the candles:
Here we are singing, and birthday boy blowing out the candles:
Here we are singing, and birthday boy blowing out the candles:First piece cut, this is the best pic of the cake-do you get the half chocolate/half vanilla thing? (light side/dark side-Yoda and Vader were the only ones that would stay up on the cake).
After cake, a little fishing (he loves fishing!) There's no hook on it, but you should see this kid's cast!!
He wanted a dragon so badly-here it is courtesy of the neighbors (they are awesome!)
Totally pooped! After I took this picture, he asked me to go get his presents and bring them in his room for the night. He's silly :)
Also, as a side note, (because this day truly was all about the birthday)- the baby crawled for the first time first thing in the morning. I tried to catch it again later, but he wouldn't do it. Here is a video of him trying-he was much more tired at this point in the day!! This was taken at the neighbors' house, with their parrot squawking in the background-it's pretty funny-he says all sorts of things!
After cake, a little fishing (he loves fishing!) There's no hook on it, but you should see this kid's cast!!
He wanted a dragon so badly-here it is courtesy of the neighbors (they are awesome!)
Totally pooped! After I took this picture, he asked me to go get his presents and bring them in his room for the night. He's silly :)
Also, as a side note, (because this day truly was all about the birthday)- the baby crawled for the first time first thing in the morning. I tried to catch it again later, but he wouldn't do it. Here is a video of him trying-he was much more tired at this point in the day!! This was taken at the neighbors' house, with their parrot squawking in the background-it's pretty funny-he says all sorts of things!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Toys
I'm having another one of "those days," and I just don't know what to do about it. I feel like we are standing still and it's driving me crazy!
Do you find it odd that I am braiding my Barbie's hair? I am trying to "lighten the load" so to speak, and prettying up my dolls to try to get some moo-lah for them. Actually, I'm really just doing it for fun. It makes me feel nostalgic. The dolls aren't worth anything.
I'm having a little hard time parting with the Barbies though. My grandmother made some dresses for them. She was a mean lady, but I think she liked me back when I was the only grandchild (I was first). Not that she ever disliked me, but my dad is the black sheep of the family, so I kind of got the shaft because of that.
Anyway, it's not that I think I'll ever have a little girl to pass them down to, and I don't particularly like the idea of Barbies anyway...it's just what they represent, ya know? A happy time in my life.
Here I go rambling again...it's just one of "those" days.
That's right, the original black Barbie. I did not dress her in the maid outfit, she came with it. That always blew my mind...
Also, we have Pizza Party Ken, complete with little cardboard pizzas, sodas, etc (not pictured).
The dolls are sitting in a Barbie and The Rockers case, worth about $20 on Ebay. But I'm really too lazy to sell it on Ebay...
I guess while I'm at it, I'll show you a picture of the My Little Ponies and Trolls.
I do not know why the Trolls are sideways, and I can't figure out how to turn it. Sorry!
Do you find it odd that I am braiding my Barbie's hair? I am trying to "lighten the load" so to speak, and prettying up my dolls to try to get some moo-lah for them. Actually, I'm really just doing it for fun. It makes me feel nostalgic. The dolls aren't worth anything.
I'm having a little hard time parting with the Barbies though. My grandmother made some dresses for them. She was a mean lady, but I think she liked me back when I was the only grandchild (I was first). Not that she ever disliked me, but my dad is the black sheep of the family, so I kind of got the shaft because of that.
Anyway, it's not that I think I'll ever have a little girl to pass them down to, and I don't particularly like the idea of Barbies anyway...it's just what they represent, ya know? A happy time in my life.
Here I go rambling again...it's just one of "those" days.
That's right, the original black Barbie. I did not dress her in the maid outfit, she came with it. That always blew my mind...
Also, we have Pizza Party Ken, complete with little cardboard pizzas, sodas, etc (not pictured).
The dolls are sitting in a Barbie and The Rockers case, worth about $20 on Ebay. But I'm really too lazy to sell it on Ebay...
I guess while I'm at it, I'll show you a picture of the My Little Ponies and Trolls.
I do not know why the Trolls are sideways, and I can't figure out how to turn it. Sorry!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
baby!
Here's a few new pics of the baby. I got this highchair for $5 on Craigslist! And our neighbors gave us this tub thingy which I tried as a baby tub because we can't afford to buy a real baby tub, and he's getting too active for the kitchen sink! However, it didn't work out quite as I had hoped. Also, every time he looks toward the camera, he blinks from the flash, so his eyes are partially closed in almost every picture! Enjoy...
And here's a video. I gave the baby carrots -his first solid food. He hasn't "officially" started solids yet, but I thought I would try it out, and he sure loved it! I plan to make my own baby food soon, but I am having an easier time finding organic baby food than organic fresh produce to make it! Not sure what to do about that...
And here's one of the big kid:
And here's a video. I gave the baby carrots -his first solid food. He hasn't "officially" started solids yet, but I thought I would try it out, and he sure loved it! I plan to make my own baby food soon, but I am having an easier time finding organic baby food than organic fresh produce to make it! Not sure what to do about that...
And here's one of the big kid:
Friday, July 9, 2010
Much to talk about
So, I have been wanting to blog for a few days, but I haven't had much to say. Or so I thought...I guess it's just been building up this whole time.
First, I want to make a couple quick notes about my kiddos. I write in my paper journal about them too, but for those of you that aren't near and want the little updates, here you go.
Ben is now able to sit unsupported for several seconds, without falling over. I find this amazing since he is not quite 6 months old! Also, we are still waiting to start solids. I sort of caved the other day and pureed some banana to try with him, but he was still using his tongue to push it out, so I know he's not physically ready. Thank goodness! I'm not ready! I know with the cloth diapers, things will change when we go from exclusive breast milk to solids, and that's a change I'm not looking forward to. Don't tell me to switch to disposables, because even if I wanted to, there's no way we could afford diapers right now...
Aside from that, he is the light of my life, the apple of my eye. Sometimes, it annoys me when he needs to go to sleep and it takes longer than normal. But the tremendous amount of satisfaction I get from all the smiles, laughter, and snuggles I get from him the rest of the time, make up for it!
Nate is growing so fast. He even told me he was growing up. I said "No, you're not allowed. Stay little and be my little boy." To which he replied "I am your little boy!" He is my heart. He loves the heck out of his baby brother. He says cute things all the time, and I am embarrassed that I can't think of any to share with you right now. He suddenly doesn't like to be alone, which I have read is typical for his age. So before, when I could put a movie on, tell him it's quiet time, and go sneak a nap, yeah, those times are over. When we put him to bed and leave the room, he says "but I will be alooone..." just like that with the drawn out "o."
He is also a little sponge. He wants to learn everything right now, and I just think it is so great! I don't mind explaining things to him, and telling him what things are, or how they work. He wants to learn Spanish and he does simple math. He loves to be read to, and is beginning to learn how to read.
On the parental front, Steven is losing his mind working yet another "temporary" job. By temporary, I mean that yes, it pays the bills, but it's not what he really wants to do, so he goes to work every day miserable. I guess there are people in the world that work at a job they hate for 20 years just because. My husband is not one of those people. So...here goes. Back to school for him! We will make it work. We will probably have to move back to Salt Lake City since he already has residency there, and the University of Utah is one of few schools with the degree that he REALLY truly wants which is Meteorology/Atmospheric Sciences. I like to joke with him that he will be the next Jim Cantore. :)
That's not really an official announcement of us moving to SLC, but right now, it's in the works. Money has to happen before that can happen.
How is Hannah doing? Oh, I don't know. Same old I guess. I enjoy my family. I got a piano, and that's what I'm doing for me right now. My goal is to write a song or two, just to get some creative energy flowing. My weight is sitting in the same spot. I do well with my diet (by "diet" I just mean what I am eating) while Steven is working, but on his days off, I can't stick to it. I eat cookies and junk, and whatever pleases my tastebuds.
Oh! AND we got a surprise visit from a couple Tennessee friends who were up in Tampa to see family. It was so great, and it was sad when they left. Not enough time.
That's about it today. Not very exciting, but it's the latest.
First, I want to make a couple quick notes about my kiddos. I write in my paper journal about them too, but for those of you that aren't near and want the little updates, here you go.
Ben is now able to sit unsupported for several seconds, without falling over. I find this amazing since he is not quite 6 months old! Also, we are still waiting to start solids. I sort of caved the other day and pureed some banana to try with him, but he was still using his tongue to push it out, so I know he's not physically ready. Thank goodness! I'm not ready! I know with the cloth diapers, things will change when we go from exclusive breast milk to solids, and that's a change I'm not looking forward to. Don't tell me to switch to disposables, because even if I wanted to, there's no way we could afford diapers right now...
Aside from that, he is the light of my life, the apple of my eye. Sometimes, it annoys me when he needs to go to sleep and it takes longer than normal. But the tremendous amount of satisfaction I get from all the smiles, laughter, and snuggles I get from him the rest of the time, make up for it!
Nate is growing so fast. He even told me he was growing up. I said "No, you're not allowed. Stay little and be my little boy." To which he replied "I am your little boy!" He is my heart. He loves the heck out of his baby brother. He says cute things all the time, and I am embarrassed that I can't think of any to share with you right now. He suddenly doesn't like to be alone, which I have read is typical for his age. So before, when I could put a movie on, tell him it's quiet time, and go sneak a nap, yeah, those times are over. When we put him to bed and leave the room, he says "but I will be alooone..." just like that with the drawn out "o."
He is also a little sponge. He wants to learn everything right now, and I just think it is so great! I don't mind explaining things to him, and telling him what things are, or how they work. He wants to learn Spanish and he does simple math. He loves to be read to, and is beginning to learn how to read.
On the parental front, Steven is losing his mind working yet another "temporary" job. By temporary, I mean that yes, it pays the bills, but it's not what he really wants to do, so he goes to work every day miserable. I guess there are people in the world that work at a job they hate for 20 years just because. My husband is not one of those people. So...here goes. Back to school for him! We will make it work. We will probably have to move back to Salt Lake City since he already has residency there, and the University of Utah is one of few schools with the degree that he REALLY truly wants which is Meteorology/Atmospheric Sciences. I like to joke with him that he will be the next Jim Cantore. :)
That's not really an official announcement of us moving to SLC, but right now, it's in the works. Money has to happen before that can happen.
How is Hannah doing? Oh, I don't know. Same old I guess. I enjoy my family. I got a piano, and that's what I'm doing for me right now. My goal is to write a song or two, just to get some creative energy flowing. My weight is sitting in the same spot. I do well with my diet (by "diet" I just mean what I am eating) while Steven is working, but on his days off, I can't stick to it. I eat cookies and junk, and whatever pleases my tastebuds.
Oh! AND we got a surprise visit from a couple Tennessee friends who were up in Tampa to see family. It was so great, and it was sad when they left. Not enough time.
That's about it today. Not very exciting, but it's the latest.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Letter to my kindergarten teacher
Dear Mrs. R,
I just wanted to let you know that I turned out alright. You'll be glad to know that I am now married to a wonderful man, and we have two beautiful boys. Yes, I got married at only 18, but we waited until we were 22 to have our first son. We bought our first home at 21, but we have moved around a lot and seen a lot of places. You probably knew that would happen since I moved so much with my Dad.
I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to help in your class when I was in high school. I fell in love with those 5 year olds, and I learned that I could be responsible. But more important to me were the talks we had, and the friendship and wisdom you offered me.
When I met my mother, and she tried to keep me in Los Angeles, you used your credit card to get me a plane ticket home. You didn't have to do that, but if you hadn't, I don't know what would have happened.
When I called you for help one day, months later, after we had lost touch for awhile, and you said "no," you saved my life. You knew something was wrong and you were right to turn me away. I was upset at the time, but now I am thankful.
You don't know what a powerful influence you have been in my life. I don't know where you are now, but if I ever find you, I will try to thank you in person. For now, I just wish you had the satisfaction of knowing that I am okay! I'm not in jail, or living on the street. I go to church, and I have a family, and I am even enrolling in college. Be proud. You helped give me the foundation that I needed when it was time to get out of trouble and into real life.
Thanks for everything.
I just wanted to let you know that I turned out alright. You'll be glad to know that I am now married to a wonderful man, and we have two beautiful boys. Yes, I got married at only 18, but we waited until we were 22 to have our first son. We bought our first home at 21, but we have moved around a lot and seen a lot of places. You probably knew that would happen since I moved so much with my Dad.
I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to help in your class when I was in high school. I fell in love with those 5 year olds, and I learned that I could be responsible. But more important to me were the talks we had, and the friendship and wisdom you offered me.
When I met my mother, and she tried to keep me in Los Angeles, you used your credit card to get me a plane ticket home. You didn't have to do that, but if you hadn't, I don't know what would have happened.
When I called you for help one day, months later, after we had lost touch for awhile, and you said "no," you saved my life. You knew something was wrong and you were right to turn me away. I was upset at the time, but now I am thankful.
You don't know what a powerful influence you have been in my life. I don't know where you are now, but if I ever find you, I will try to thank you in person. For now, I just wish you had the satisfaction of knowing that I am okay! I'm not in jail, or living on the street. I go to church, and I have a family, and I am even enrolling in college. Be proud. You helped give me the foundation that I needed when it was time to get out of trouble and into real life.
Thanks for everything.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Teaching Moments
So, I have decided, within the last few days, that I am definitely making the choice to home school. AND I am going to do it from the beginning. There are so many reasons. Maybe I will go into it in another post. But I will say that I have checked out several books on the subject (thank you local library), and they have been IMMENSELY helpful!
For now I just want to record some of my experiences since I have made this HUGE decision. I have noticed so many opportunities to teach since I have been paying attention!
Today, I have already taught my son about gravity and basic math. I believe him to be a visual learner, so I tend to take advantage of things that he sees. We were watching Phineas and Ferb (a cartoon) earlier, and they were making an anti-gravity machine, so I got to explain gravity! Then, we were playing Mario Kart together, and I was asking him "if I am in 7th place, and there are 8 people playing, how many people are in front of me?" and "if I am in 3rd place, how many people are behind me?" We went on like this for some time, and he really got it!
I have learned that I really CAN do this! I have already been homeschooling without even realizing it! (As are so many other parents of preschoolers.)
I have not yet chosen a method, but I think we will probably try different things in the first few years until we find what works. And what works for him may not be the same thing that works for his younger brother. Sooo, it feels like an adventure! And I am very excited.
For now I just want to record some of my experiences since I have made this HUGE decision. I have noticed so many opportunities to teach since I have been paying attention!
Today, I have already taught my son about gravity and basic math. I believe him to be a visual learner, so I tend to take advantage of things that he sees. We were watching Phineas and Ferb (a cartoon) earlier, and they were making an anti-gravity machine, so I got to explain gravity! Then, we were playing Mario Kart together, and I was asking him "if I am in 7th place, and there are 8 people playing, how many people are in front of me?" and "if I am in 3rd place, how many people are behind me?" We went on like this for some time, and he really got it!
I have learned that I really CAN do this! I have already been homeschooling without even realizing it! (As are so many other parents of preschoolers.)
I have not yet chosen a method, but I think we will probably try different things in the first few years until we find what works. And what works for him may not be the same thing that works for his younger brother. Sooo, it feels like an adventure! And I am very excited.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Pictures of the day
My baby turned 20 weeks old yesterday. Today he rolled over from his back to his tummy! Here is a picture right after he did it.
And here is a picture of my improved waistline. :)
And here is a picture of my improved waistline. :)
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Lbs, California and misc.
I am down to 151. I feel guilty to say I haven't been the best about the plan. I think the Florida heat is melting it off, and breastfeeding. LOL I haven't technically worked out in a few days, and I have been eating M&Ms. I even went on a donut binge for 2 days last week. But ever since that I felt so guilty that I went back to healthy. I am now trying this thing where you eat a huge breakfast (protein), medium lunch (more protein) and light dinner. We will see if it works, because I have the biggest appetite after dinner....
Don't get me wrong, I am being somewhat active, I just haven't seen Jillian (Michaels), or Carmen (Electra) since last week. I went to the beach and swam a bit. This morning I went for a walk. It's really hot at 10 am...and walking with a 3 yr old is not exactly cardio.
It's really weird that my husband is at work Monday and Tuesday, home Wednesday and Thursday, at work Friday and Saturday, and home Sunday. It sort of shakes everything up around here. But it's nice seeing him that much, and being able to do things together during the week (like go to the beach) when there aren't as many people out.
The only weird thing is that on the days he is at work, I don't really see him until after 8 pm. Then we go to bed at 10ish.
I am really leaning toward homeschool. I did a lot of research yesterday and I think I can do it. However, I am thankful that we have at least another year to decide. Haha.
Also, I think we are California bound. "But you JUST MOVED all the way across the country to Florida!" you say? Well, that's how we roll. This time we are going to make a plan.
This is our moving plan.
1. Before we move we MUST have our credit card debt PAID (about $2600 as of right now).
2. We will sell both of our vehicles when we leave. If we do that, we will not have to pay the gas to drive them, or repairs because they both won't make it across the country as of right now. We can probably buy a little sedan when we get there for $2000 which is the same or more than what we would have to invest to bring one or both cars.
3. Steven WILL transfer with Comcast. So we will start watching for positions when our lease is up (hoping our landlord will let us go month to month), and when there is one open in a town we like, he will apply.
4. I will not even think about having another baby until we get settled where we are going. ONLY THEN will we open it back up for discussion.
5. We are yet undecided exactly HOW to move. It depends on how much money we have to make the move. We could rent the smallest UHaul, bring what we can fit, and Steven can drive it out, while I fly with the kids. (Overall cost, approx. $2500) Actually, we could probably use a company that drives our stuff out for us and all of us fly for about the same price...That would be even better!!!
I estimate it will be at least a year before we can get back to the West Coast. Man, we are crazy.
Don't get me wrong, I am being somewhat active, I just haven't seen Jillian (Michaels), or Carmen (Electra) since last week. I went to the beach and swam a bit. This morning I went for a walk. It's really hot at 10 am...and walking with a 3 yr old is not exactly cardio.
It's really weird that my husband is at work Monday and Tuesday, home Wednesday and Thursday, at work Friday and Saturday, and home Sunday. It sort of shakes everything up around here. But it's nice seeing him that much, and being able to do things together during the week (like go to the beach) when there aren't as many people out.
The only weird thing is that on the days he is at work, I don't really see him until after 8 pm. Then we go to bed at 10ish.
I am really leaning toward homeschool. I did a lot of research yesterday and I think I can do it. However, I am thankful that we have at least another year to decide. Haha.
Also, I think we are California bound. "But you JUST MOVED all the way across the country to Florida!" you say? Well, that's how we roll. This time we are going to make a plan.
This is our moving plan.
1. Before we move we MUST have our credit card debt PAID (about $2600 as of right now).
2. We will sell both of our vehicles when we leave. If we do that, we will not have to pay the gas to drive them, or repairs because they both won't make it across the country as of right now. We can probably buy a little sedan when we get there for $2000 which is the same or more than what we would have to invest to bring one or both cars.
3. Steven WILL transfer with Comcast. So we will start watching for positions when our lease is up (hoping our landlord will let us go month to month), and when there is one open in a town we like, he will apply.
4. I will not even think about having another baby until we get settled where we are going. ONLY THEN will we open it back up for discussion.
5. We are yet undecided exactly HOW to move. It depends on how much money we have to make the move. We could rent the smallest UHaul, bring what we can fit, and Steven can drive it out, while I fly with the kids. (Overall cost, approx. $2500) Actually, we could probably use a company that drives our stuff out for us and all of us fly for about the same price...That would be even better!!!
I estimate it will be at least a year before we can get back to the West Coast. Man, we are crazy.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Thoughts of the day
For some reason, I woke up this morning thinking about a few of the injustices my parents did me...
When I was 12, we lived in Bisbee, Arizona. I had done children's theatre throughout my childhood and loved it. I always had big small roles. LOL What I mean by that is that I never had a starring role in the plays, but I was usually cast in the biggest of the small roles. I was also usually some sort of "character"- something outrageous that the other kids were afraid to do, I guess...
Anyway, after several auditions, I had just been cast as the Caterpillar in Alice in Wonderland. To me, this was the role of a lifetime, and I was SOOO excited!
Then we moved. We up and left town without me even having the chance to tell the theatre group. I just disappeared.
Then there were the various pets....when I was 5 I had a black lab named Sambo, and when we moved from California to Wisconsin, we "let him go." At this time, I had no idea how bad that was. Hopefully someone found him by the river (which was where we let him out) and took him home.
When I was 12 again (lots of bad things when I was 12, thanks to my awful step-mother and my wuss of a father who never stood up to her), I had a pet rat. Actually I had him before my dad and step mom got together, in Nevada City, CA. We moved to Bisbee shortly after, and I got to bring the rat. His name was Cisco. My parents (I'm sure it was my step-mom, but they claimed everything was a mutual decision) had the bright idea of keeping Cisco's cage in the cab of our truck. This was a big moving truck/box truck that we had because we moved so much, but we only used it for moving, so mostly it just sat there. My dad bought it with the intention of using it to haul equipment to gigs (he's a drummer in whatever band he can find). Anyway, we lived in the desert outside of Bisbee, and if anyone reading this has ever been to the southern AZ area, it is HOTTTTT. I was 12, and for some reason I didn't understand that it might be bad idea to put a rodent cage in the cab of a truck with the windows barely cracked in mid-summer. Cisco died.
To make up for it, they got me a kitten, which I loved. He was a grey striped tabby and I named him Charlie. One day, I came home from sleeping over at a friend's house, and he was gone. They were not ashamed to tell me they had taken Charlie to the pound. He was scratching the furniture too much.
Months later, my step-sister and I got puppies! We went to someone's house and each picked one out. She got a little boy dog, named Gus (short for Augustus) and I got a little girl and named her Taz (for Tazmanian Devil, cuz she was rowdy). You should have seen me and my step-sister running around the property with our 2 little dogs. They were german shepard mixes. They used to get under the barbed wire fence into the neighboring cattle pasture, and we would have to crawl through the fence and chase them down. They were beef cattle, and they sure didn't seem intimidated by those little puppies.
Shortly after, the parents decided that 2 puppies was too much work, and since mine was the rowdier of the 2, off mine went.
I really shouldn't be sharing this next experience, but since a blog is supposed to be like a journal, and it's all pouring out right now, here I go. My step-mom was pretty nasty to me. It's hard to explain, but one experience sticks out in my mind.
We were living in Wisconsin (which is where we went right after Bisbee) at my Aunt's boyfriend's (now husband's) house. Since there wasn't enough room in the house, my parents, and little half-brother (about 1 at the time) lived in a spare room of the house, and my step-sister and I lived in our motor home which was parked in the driveway. Since there was no running water in the motor home, we had to come in the house to use the bathroom, etc.
As a teenage girl (about 13) I loved magazines like Seventeen, etc. Well, my aunt had given me some of her old magazines which were the likes of Cosmopolitan. Yes, I realize now that those magazines are a bit inappropriate for a 13 yr old, but no, I didn't understand half of what I read. I mostly like the makeup and fashion tips. Knowing that my step-mother would not approve, I hid them under my bed in the motor home. She found them one day (why she was snooping around, I don't know), and grounded me to the motor home.
Later on, I came in the house to pee, she asked me what I thought I was doing, and when I told her (probably in a snotty tone), she picked up a handheld mirror (probably 8 x 8 or so) on the bathroom counter and smacked me across the face with it. All I remember was the shattering sound of the glass and the screams (mine) that followed. My dad didn't even know this had happened until a few years later when I told him. He sort of apologized that it happened, and that was the end of it.
I don't want to talk anymore, but I feel that this has been a good therapy session. The End.
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