Our time in Florida has been a very humbling experience for me. I didn't want to come here, but I knew my husband had righteous motives-to work through some family things, and he hoped for progress in that area-to be closer to his family, but we didn't understand exactly what that would mean.
When we got here, I tried to adapt, but found it very difficult, so difficult in fact, that I accidentally sabotaged my social life. Is that a contradiction? Is sabotage supposedly intentional? Anyway, it happened. It kept me from church for a few weeks, which has also been humbling and a learning experience. It also helped me get to know my neighbors, who turned out to be a family that we will always remember, and thanks to Facebook, probably never lose touch with.
Things didn't turn out exactly the way we anticipated with one side of Steven's family. Actually, it turned out to be a disappointment. But last night, a surprise phone call came and a dinner was planned for tonight with the other side of the family. We had no clear intentions of hooking up with Steven's dad's side (including a younger sister, age 10-she shares a b'day with Steven, and her mom, and wonderful woman with whom I would love to spend more time). However, GOD INTENDED US TO RECONNECT WITH THEM.
We all went to dinner tonight, and although I can't describe exactly how the whole thing felt, I can say it was very healing and fulfilling. I'm having a very hard time choosing words here. I just want to say that I have a little bit better understand of how normal families must feel toward each other. Like no matter what, you are always family, and it all comes together in the end. I feel that they are truly there for us, they care about us, respect us and love us. And it's mutual. (I have that with my dad, but no one else that I am related to by blood. I think Steven has desired it with his mom, but she has never been able to really fill that role.) What a wonderful feeling to experience after all these years of disappointment.
I think Steven would say "that's enough about feelings now!" LOL
My cup runneth over. We are truly blessed. The Lord has provided for us and will continue to do so. I know that to be true.
So, I think we have made enough expensive mistakes moving back and forth across the country. We are finally on the right track, and it feels good. I think as long as we continue to put family first, we will be okay.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
Happy Birthday-4 yrs old already??!!!
I tried to document the day the best I could. Here we have the favorite breakfast: french toast with fruit. (I'm so happy that he likes cantaloupe, because I don't! lol)
A little rough-housing with Daddy!
We did whatever he wanted today, and one thing he wanted to do was play soccer in the backyard!Here he is swimming in the neighbor's pool. This is the first time swimming all by himself-he's not scared anymore!!
Eating lunch-hot dogs, watermelon, and party mix. :)
Here is baby brother chowing down on watermelon (or trying...)
Here is baby brother chowing down on watermelon (or trying...)Lighting the candles:
Here we are singing, and birthday boy blowing out the candles:
Here we are singing, and birthday boy blowing out the candles:First piece cut, this is the best pic of the cake-do you get the half chocolate/half vanilla thing? (light side/dark side-Yoda and Vader were the only ones that would stay up on the cake).
After cake, a little fishing (he loves fishing!) There's no hook on it, but you should see this kid's cast!!
He wanted a dragon so badly-here it is courtesy of the neighbors (they are awesome!)
Totally pooped! After I took this picture, he asked me to go get his presents and bring them in his room for the night. He's silly :)
Also, as a side note, (because this day truly was all about the birthday)- the baby crawled for the first time first thing in the morning. I tried to catch it again later, but he wouldn't do it. Here is a video of him trying-he was much more tired at this point in the day!! This was taken at the neighbors' house, with their parrot squawking in the background-it's pretty funny-he says all sorts of things!
After cake, a little fishing (he loves fishing!) There's no hook on it, but you should see this kid's cast!!
He wanted a dragon so badly-here it is courtesy of the neighbors (they are awesome!)
Totally pooped! After I took this picture, he asked me to go get his presents and bring them in his room for the night. He's silly :)
Also, as a side note, (because this day truly was all about the birthday)- the baby crawled for the first time first thing in the morning. I tried to catch it again later, but he wouldn't do it. Here is a video of him trying-he was much more tired at this point in the day!! This was taken at the neighbors' house, with their parrot squawking in the background-it's pretty funny-he says all sorts of things!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Toys
I'm having another one of "those days," and I just don't know what to do about it. I feel like we are standing still and it's driving me crazy!
Do you find it odd that I am braiding my Barbie's hair? I am trying to "lighten the load" so to speak, and prettying up my dolls to try to get some moo-lah for them. Actually, I'm really just doing it for fun. It makes me feel nostalgic. The dolls aren't worth anything.
I'm having a little hard time parting with the Barbies though. My grandmother made some dresses for them. She was a mean lady, but I think she liked me back when I was the only grandchild (I was first). Not that she ever disliked me, but my dad is the black sheep of the family, so I kind of got the shaft because of that.
Anyway, it's not that I think I'll ever have a little girl to pass them down to, and I don't particularly like the idea of Barbies anyway...it's just what they represent, ya know? A happy time in my life.
Here I go rambling again...it's just one of "those" days.
That's right, the original black Barbie. I did not dress her in the maid outfit, she came with it. That always blew my mind...
Also, we have Pizza Party Ken, complete with little cardboard pizzas, sodas, etc (not pictured).
The dolls are sitting in a Barbie and The Rockers case, worth about $20 on Ebay. But I'm really too lazy to sell it on Ebay...
I guess while I'm at it, I'll show you a picture of the My Little Ponies and Trolls.
I do not know why the Trolls are sideways, and I can't figure out how to turn it. Sorry!
Do you find it odd that I am braiding my Barbie's hair? I am trying to "lighten the load" so to speak, and prettying up my dolls to try to get some moo-lah for them. Actually, I'm really just doing it for fun. It makes me feel nostalgic. The dolls aren't worth anything.
I'm having a little hard time parting with the Barbies though. My grandmother made some dresses for them. She was a mean lady, but I think she liked me back when I was the only grandchild (I was first). Not that she ever disliked me, but my dad is the black sheep of the family, so I kind of got the shaft because of that.
Anyway, it's not that I think I'll ever have a little girl to pass them down to, and I don't particularly like the idea of Barbies anyway...it's just what they represent, ya know? A happy time in my life.
Here I go rambling again...it's just one of "those" days.
That's right, the original black Barbie. I did not dress her in the maid outfit, she came with it. That always blew my mind...
Also, we have Pizza Party Ken, complete with little cardboard pizzas, sodas, etc (not pictured).
The dolls are sitting in a Barbie and The Rockers case, worth about $20 on Ebay. But I'm really too lazy to sell it on Ebay...
I guess while I'm at it, I'll show you a picture of the My Little Ponies and Trolls.
I do not know why the Trolls are sideways, and I can't figure out how to turn it. Sorry!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
baby!
Here's a few new pics of the baby. I got this highchair for $5 on Craigslist! And our neighbors gave us this tub thingy which I tried as a baby tub because we can't afford to buy a real baby tub, and he's getting too active for the kitchen sink! However, it didn't work out quite as I had hoped. Also, every time he looks toward the camera, he blinks from the flash, so his eyes are partially closed in almost every picture! Enjoy...
And here's a video. I gave the baby carrots -his first solid food. He hasn't "officially" started solids yet, but I thought I would try it out, and he sure loved it! I plan to make my own baby food soon, but I am having an easier time finding organic baby food than organic fresh produce to make it! Not sure what to do about that...
And here's one of the big kid:
And here's a video. I gave the baby carrots -his first solid food. He hasn't "officially" started solids yet, but I thought I would try it out, and he sure loved it! I plan to make my own baby food soon, but I am having an easier time finding organic baby food than organic fresh produce to make it! Not sure what to do about that...
And here's one of the big kid:
Friday, July 9, 2010
Much to talk about
So, I have been wanting to blog for a few days, but I haven't had much to say. Or so I thought...I guess it's just been building up this whole time.
First, I want to make a couple quick notes about my kiddos. I write in my paper journal about them too, but for those of you that aren't near and want the little updates, here you go.
Ben is now able to sit unsupported for several seconds, without falling over. I find this amazing since he is not quite 6 months old! Also, we are still waiting to start solids. I sort of caved the other day and pureed some banana to try with him, but he was still using his tongue to push it out, so I know he's not physically ready. Thank goodness! I'm not ready! I know with the cloth diapers, things will change when we go from exclusive breast milk to solids, and that's a change I'm not looking forward to. Don't tell me to switch to disposables, because even if I wanted to, there's no way we could afford diapers right now...
Aside from that, he is the light of my life, the apple of my eye. Sometimes, it annoys me when he needs to go to sleep and it takes longer than normal. But the tremendous amount of satisfaction I get from all the smiles, laughter, and snuggles I get from him the rest of the time, make up for it!
Nate is growing so fast. He even told me he was growing up. I said "No, you're not allowed. Stay little and be my little boy." To which he replied "I am your little boy!" He is my heart. He loves the heck out of his baby brother. He says cute things all the time, and I am embarrassed that I can't think of any to share with you right now. He suddenly doesn't like to be alone, which I have read is typical for his age. So before, when I could put a movie on, tell him it's quiet time, and go sneak a nap, yeah, those times are over. When we put him to bed and leave the room, he says "but I will be alooone..." just like that with the drawn out "o."
He is also a little sponge. He wants to learn everything right now, and I just think it is so great! I don't mind explaining things to him, and telling him what things are, or how they work. He wants to learn Spanish and he does simple math. He loves to be read to, and is beginning to learn how to read.
On the parental front, Steven is losing his mind working yet another "temporary" job. By temporary, I mean that yes, it pays the bills, but it's not what he really wants to do, so he goes to work every day miserable. I guess there are people in the world that work at a job they hate for 20 years just because. My husband is not one of those people. So...here goes. Back to school for him! We will make it work. We will probably have to move back to Salt Lake City since he already has residency there, and the University of Utah is one of few schools with the degree that he REALLY truly wants which is Meteorology/Atmospheric Sciences. I like to joke with him that he will be the next Jim Cantore. :)
That's not really an official announcement of us moving to SLC, but right now, it's in the works. Money has to happen before that can happen.
How is Hannah doing? Oh, I don't know. Same old I guess. I enjoy my family. I got a piano, and that's what I'm doing for me right now. My goal is to write a song or two, just to get some creative energy flowing. My weight is sitting in the same spot. I do well with my diet (by "diet" I just mean what I am eating) while Steven is working, but on his days off, I can't stick to it. I eat cookies and junk, and whatever pleases my tastebuds.
Oh! AND we got a surprise visit from a couple Tennessee friends who were up in Tampa to see family. It was so great, and it was sad when they left. Not enough time.
That's about it today. Not very exciting, but it's the latest.
First, I want to make a couple quick notes about my kiddos. I write in my paper journal about them too, but for those of you that aren't near and want the little updates, here you go.
Ben is now able to sit unsupported for several seconds, without falling over. I find this amazing since he is not quite 6 months old! Also, we are still waiting to start solids. I sort of caved the other day and pureed some banana to try with him, but he was still using his tongue to push it out, so I know he's not physically ready. Thank goodness! I'm not ready! I know with the cloth diapers, things will change when we go from exclusive breast milk to solids, and that's a change I'm not looking forward to. Don't tell me to switch to disposables, because even if I wanted to, there's no way we could afford diapers right now...
Aside from that, he is the light of my life, the apple of my eye. Sometimes, it annoys me when he needs to go to sleep and it takes longer than normal. But the tremendous amount of satisfaction I get from all the smiles, laughter, and snuggles I get from him the rest of the time, make up for it!
Nate is growing so fast. He even told me he was growing up. I said "No, you're not allowed. Stay little and be my little boy." To which he replied "I am your little boy!" He is my heart. He loves the heck out of his baby brother. He says cute things all the time, and I am embarrassed that I can't think of any to share with you right now. He suddenly doesn't like to be alone, which I have read is typical for his age. So before, when I could put a movie on, tell him it's quiet time, and go sneak a nap, yeah, those times are over. When we put him to bed and leave the room, he says "but I will be alooone..." just like that with the drawn out "o."
He is also a little sponge. He wants to learn everything right now, and I just think it is so great! I don't mind explaining things to him, and telling him what things are, or how they work. He wants to learn Spanish and he does simple math. He loves to be read to, and is beginning to learn how to read.
On the parental front, Steven is losing his mind working yet another "temporary" job. By temporary, I mean that yes, it pays the bills, but it's not what he really wants to do, so he goes to work every day miserable. I guess there are people in the world that work at a job they hate for 20 years just because. My husband is not one of those people. So...here goes. Back to school for him! We will make it work. We will probably have to move back to Salt Lake City since he already has residency there, and the University of Utah is one of few schools with the degree that he REALLY truly wants which is Meteorology/Atmospheric Sciences. I like to joke with him that he will be the next Jim Cantore. :)
That's not really an official announcement of us moving to SLC, but right now, it's in the works. Money has to happen before that can happen.
How is Hannah doing? Oh, I don't know. Same old I guess. I enjoy my family. I got a piano, and that's what I'm doing for me right now. My goal is to write a song or two, just to get some creative energy flowing. My weight is sitting in the same spot. I do well with my diet (by "diet" I just mean what I am eating) while Steven is working, but on his days off, I can't stick to it. I eat cookies and junk, and whatever pleases my tastebuds.
Oh! AND we got a surprise visit from a couple Tennessee friends who were up in Tampa to see family. It was so great, and it was sad when they left. Not enough time.
That's about it today. Not very exciting, but it's the latest.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Letter to my kindergarten teacher
Dear Mrs. R,
I just wanted to let you know that I turned out alright. You'll be glad to know that I am now married to a wonderful man, and we have two beautiful boys. Yes, I got married at only 18, but we waited until we were 22 to have our first son. We bought our first home at 21, but we have moved around a lot and seen a lot of places. You probably knew that would happen since I moved so much with my Dad.
I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to help in your class when I was in high school. I fell in love with those 5 year olds, and I learned that I could be responsible. But more important to me were the talks we had, and the friendship and wisdom you offered me.
When I met my mother, and she tried to keep me in Los Angeles, you used your credit card to get me a plane ticket home. You didn't have to do that, but if you hadn't, I don't know what would have happened.
When I called you for help one day, months later, after we had lost touch for awhile, and you said "no," you saved my life. You knew something was wrong and you were right to turn me away. I was upset at the time, but now I am thankful.
You don't know what a powerful influence you have been in my life. I don't know where you are now, but if I ever find you, I will try to thank you in person. For now, I just wish you had the satisfaction of knowing that I am okay! I'm not in jail, or living on the street. I go to church, and I have a family, and I am even enrolling in college. Be proud. You helped give me the foundation that I needed when it was time to get out of trouble and into real life.
Thanks for everything.
I just wanted to let you know that I turned out alright. You'll be glad to know that I am now married to a wonderful man, and we have two beautiful boys. Yes, I got married at only 18, but we waited until we were 22 to have our first son. We bought our first home at 21, but we have moved around a lot and seen a lot of places. You probably knew that would happen since I moved so much with my Dad.
I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to help in your class when I was in high school. I fell in love with those 5 year olds, and I learned that I could be responsible. But more important to me were the talks we had, and the friendship and wisdom you offered me.
When I met my mother, and she tried to keep me in Los Angeles, you used your credit card to get me a plane ticket home. You didn't have to do that, but if you hadn't, I don't know what would have happened.
When I called you for help one day, months later, after we had lost touch for awhile, and you said "no," you saved my life. You knew something was wrong and you were right to turn me away. I was upset at the time, but now I am thankful.
You don't know what a powerful influence you have been in my life. I don't know where you are now, but if I ever find you, I will try to thank you in person. For now, I just wish you had the satisfaction of knowing that I am okay! I'm not in jail, or living on the street. I go to church, and I have a family, and I am even enrolling in college. Be proud. You helped give me the foundation that I needed when it was time to get out of trouble and into real life.
Thanks for everything.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Teaching Moments
So, I have decided, within the last few days, that I am definitely making the choice to home school. AND I am going to do it from the beginning. There are so many reasons. Maybe I will go into it in another post. But I will say that I have checked out several books on the subject (thank you local library), and they have been IMMENSELY helpful!
For now I just want to record some of my experiences since I have made this HUGE decision. I have noticed so many opportunities to teach since I have been paying attention!
Today, I have already taught my son about gravity and basic math. I believe him to be a visual learner, so I tend to take advantage of things that he sees. We were watching Phineas and Ferb (a cartoon) earlier, and they were making an anti-gravity machine, so I got to explain gravity! Then, we were playing Mario Kart together, and I was asking him "if I am in 7th place, and there are 8 people playing, how many people are in front of me?" and "if I am in 3rd place, how many people are behind me?" We went on like this for some time, and he really got it!
I have learned that I really CAN do this! I have already been homeschooling without even realizing it! (As are so many other parents of preschoolers.)
I have not yet chosen a method, but I think we will probably try different things in the first few years until we find what works. And what works for him may not be the same thing that works for his younger brother. Sooo, it feels like an adventure! And I am very excited.
For now I just want to record some of my experiences since I have made this HUGE decision. I have noticed so many opportunities to teach since I have been paying attention!
Today, I have already taught my son about gravity and basic math. I believe him to be a visual learner, so I tend to take advantage of things that he sees. We were watching Phineas and Ferb (a cartoon) earlier, and they were making an anti-gravity machine, so I got to explain gravity! Then, we were playing Mario Kart together, and I was asking him "if I am in 7th place, and there are 8 people playing, how many people are in front of me?" and "if I am in 3rd place, how many people are behind me?" We went on like this for some time, and he really got it!
I have learned that I really CAN do this! I have already been homeschooling without even realizing it! (As are so many other parents of preschoolers.)
I have not yet chosen a method, but I think we will probably try different things in the first few years until we find what works. And what works for him may not be the same thing that works for his younger brother. Sooo, it feels like an adventure! And I am very excited.
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